Its OFFICIAL

Last week some things happened and I was sure I WASN'T going to be moving, but then on Thursday I had a meeting with my Boss's boss and things ended up being different.

Bob, I and the kids are moving to TEXAS.

This is the hardest decision I've ever had to make and it hasn't been easy.

We'll leave at the end of December or the first part of January.

I currently have all these emotions running through my head, but I know that everything happens for a reason and when one door closes another one always opens.

I'm struggling with leaving my family behind, but I know I'll see them all the time.  I'm also struggling with leaving my friends, the ones who I have become super close too, but friendships can last no matter how far apart you are.

So that my friends, is our news!!  WISH US LUCK, We'll need it!!

Moving

Three days ago I was packing up my house and I was going to move to Texas, I was going to leave what I have known for the last 20 years behind and start something new.  But as I got thinking and praying, I wasn't getting the assurance I needed or the answers I wanted to hear.  I put TWO whole days into figuring out how much it would cost, what it would take to move, where to live, how to do this and most importantly how to tell my Mom.  When I called my Sister on Friday to tell her, I didn't get the response I thought I would she said "You have to do what is best for you!", but then she said something that got me thinking "I will miss out on my Nephews and Niece growing up and that will be sad!"  I'm not ready to move my kids away from what they know, I'm not ready to start over, because the cheapest rent down there for a nice 4 bedroom 2 bath is $1500.00 a month and I pay less than $900.00 for my mortgage.  I'm not ready to walk away from the house that we've made a home for the last 5 years, I'm not ready to leave my family and not know what the future holds.  Right now, I know things will work out, I know I am being watched out for, I know that my prayers are being answered, maybe not the way I want them to be, but just how they need to be.

I've done a lot of crying, thinking and praying.  I've also been extremely angry.  I can't figure out why this happened to me, I can't figure out if its just my LUCK or if there is something more. 

I'm facing a lot this week, a lot of questions, alot to think about and do.  But I know in the end it will all work out.  IT JUST HAS TOO!!!

September Instagram update

These are in no particular order, but here we go....

Bob spoiled me BIG time this year, had flowers sent to work, unfortunately I wasn't there to get them, so his co-worker dropped them off.  Love them and they were beautiful.

Ashton's asthma has been horrible this year, we do atleast one breathing treatment a week.  The fires don't help the air and the lack of rain isn't helping either.

Oh this boy, he just makes me laugh all the time.  I was having a horrible day and he said "Mommy, don't cry, I'm not going anywhere!"

Yes, this is our new once a weekend thing, Avocado tomato grill cheese.....HEAVEN ON EARTH!!

My boys weren't approved to ride the bus yet since we're on a variance, so I've been picking them up and Grandma takes them.  Its fun to watch them come out.

Breakfast for dinner, omlette with mushrooms, tomatoes and peppers and a side of hashbrowns with salsa on top. 

 

These two, they crack me up, but I love them both to death!

 

Our dinners are very interesting lately since Bob and I don't eat red meat anymore.  This night we had a mixed rice, broccoli and white fish.

Baby piglets and their Momma at the Utah State fair, love going and seeing all the fun animals.

Fall decorations, I seriously love putting out my fall stuff, its definately my favorite decoration season, I even like it better than Christmas.

My wreath I made, it actually looks different now, I added some more ribbon and leaves.

First day of school, I have some handsome boys.  Ashton was so excited, Jax, he was excited, but you can't tell.

My work snacks, a bag of apples, a banana, a bag of celery, a bag of carrots and some grapes.

Every month I change out the O in my HOME wood letters, I love figuring out what I'm going to do for each season.

This boy, he was having a bad day talking about starting school back up and he was telling me about a mean playground duty teacher, oh it broke my heart.

Jaxon was sawing wood to burn in the fire pit, he definately all BOY!!!

Oh this makes me think a lot about my oldest just looking at it.  Jaxon came to me yesterday after school and said "Mom, I got this for you because you've been sad!'  He got a hundred on his spelling test and instead of getting himself something, he got me this to cheer me up.  OH, I never doubt that my kids can bring my spirits up.

My Daughter, she is quite the one.  The other night after dressing herself for bedtime, because she is BIG enough to do it, she came down to get her hair brushed out and she said she didn't like panties so she was wearing them over her pants.  Well that didn't last long, Daddy made her change, I'm just glad he had to be the bad person and not me.

Silly girl

 

Trying to get this girl to eat her veggies, so I always have to bribe her with stuff.

 

I love doing hair, this day we did pigs and braids.

 

The one thing I can say about this girl is that she can definately entertain herself.

Lexi passed out after the fair, going down the BIG YELLOW SLIDE made her exhausted.

 

My cutie

 

His nose was cold so he put his paw over it to keep it warm, seriously how cute is that?

This is how much Nova likes the leash, oh I laughed so hard the entire day, he did not like it.

Fresh Raspberries, so yummy!

 

I'm obsessed with colored skinny jeans, I have red, coral, mint and blue right now, but I want a pink, purple and yellow pair.

Pumpkin cream cheese muffin and a skinny iced caramel Macchiato, it cheered me up, just a little!!

Love this!

A New Chapter

This past week has been hard, I've learned things can change in the blink of eye.  One minute you are content with where life is going and how it looks, things are going smoothly and it seems as if everything is falling into place just the way you like it and BAM!!!  Just like that your world is flipped upside down and you are left wondering, worried and a mess.  Thats all I can describe it to be.  NO, I am not getting fired, I am getting laid off.  I do have opportunities and I am hoping something falls into place.  But this is like turning a chapter in a book, because more than likely our home will not be Utah anymore.  We will be moving out of state and turning a new chapter in our lives.

I am scared, nervous, unsure and anxious.  I am a planner, I am impatient, I like to plan out things in my life, I like to have a plan, I like to know what my future holds to a certain degree, obviously things happen a long the way.  But this is huge, this is picking up my family and starting a new life, this is leaving my family, my friends, what I know and moving on. 

I'm a believer that EVERYTHING  happens for a reason, many things in life happen and we have no control over them.  I also believe that when ONE DOOR CLOSES, ANOTHER ONE OPENS.  I believe things will work out, I know they will.  Bob and I have been down many roads in our 9 years together and this is just a bump.

Now I just pray, pray that God gives me the answer that I need, pray that he will help me make this decision and let me know its okay.  Pray that things will work out if the road is a different one.  Faith is a huge factor right now.  And although many tears have been cried this week, I have the most amazing support...HOLY COW!!!

Our weekend

We had a low key mild weekend, after last weekend,  I NEEDED IT!!!

I've been busy taking pictures every weekend, making some money on the side, I enjoy it a ton.

Yesterday I spent the day doing crafts and the kids played outside all day.  After dinner we decided to go for a walk around Jensen Park, Bob's oldest daughter needed to find some bugs for a science project and there are PLENTY of bugs out there.

So we loaded up the kids and some mason jars and hit the road.

This little girl isn't afraid of anything, but a big yellow slide, bugs though and frogs and fish, YEAH RIGHT!!

I found the one and only bug that Bob's daughter took home, it was a black beetle and it was huge.  I didn't take a picture of it.

The boys and Avery were trying to catch a frog, but they are out in the pond and hard to find.  They were determined to catch tadpoles, I kept trying to tell them, there would be no tadpoles.  Well they caught, what they thought were tadpoles and ended up being fish, makes me laugh still.

This above is the face Ash gave me, when I told him he couldn't keep the fish, he was devastated, but guess what we came home with?????  6 tiny fish and they are still in the mason jar in the back yard.  YES, I am a MOTHER OF BOYS!!!

Then, today we went for a hike up at Snowbasin, I love it up there, its beautiful, its refreshing, the views are gorgeous and my kids are in pure heaven.

 

Everything is changing colors and its breathtaking, I love this time of year.

 

 

Absolutely love this pictures, she is 100% a Daddy's girl and she has him wrapped around every single finger.

 

 

Bob has to do an assignment for class, so I was helping him with some pictures, he has to make a comic strip, should be interesting!

Beautiful yellow flowers, so pretty

 

Lex and her Grandma (my Mom)

 

 

Lex had fun going over this hill, the boys ran around this thing twice with my parents dog.

Oh what a fun, relaxing weekend, I love my weekends.