Monday, December 15, 2014

Losing a friend

I sat down to write this post right after in happen, but the words just didn't seem right.

November 18th will be a day that forever changed my life.  I will never forget finding out, the discussion with my boy and the days following.  Jaxon lost a friend whom he played with at school.  It was the hardest thing I've had to go through since my parenting days started 10 years ago.  The sadness, the unanswered questions, the why and oh so much more.  But what I will never forget is seeing the amount of faith my 10 year old Son has.  He isn't one to talk about his relationship with God, but oh how it came out.  Seeing your 10 year old pray when he is hurting, knowing that God has this, he has all the answers and sometimes its okay that we don't know them.  I will never forget him telling me "Mom, I know my friend is safe from this crazy world, I know he is Mom!  He is with Jesus!"  Indeed he is Son.  He so is.  I've never cried so hard minus finding out I may lose my Husband.  I cried tears for my boy this time though, my heart hurt so bad for him. 

This photo was etched in my brain for days.  My boy praying for his friend, for his family and for his friends friend's.  But deep down inside he was hurting.  He asked God to keep his friend safe and that he'll see him again somedays.
Made my heart happy to know that 3 years ago, I wouldn't have taught my Kids what they know today about God and Jesus.  OH how I've seen so many blessings in all our lives just by committing to follow the way that God wants us to follow.  So many blessings pouring down.

And the night before I ran across this on pinterest and it spoke right to my heart.
No child should ever lose a friend at the age of 10....ever.  But we know God has a plan and he needed him more than we did.

Catching UP

Wow, I was looking at pictures 2and realized so much has happened in the past two months.  We've had a lot going on. 

So I'm going to update every person.


He is busy with homework every single day.  5th grade isn't easy.  Jaxon has had some good weeks.  We love good weeks.  He is busy building with Legos, riding his bike, playing with friends and doing whatever fills his time up. 



Ashton is busy with girls and I'm afraid this is ONLY the beginning.  We have girls fighting over him and by the way he is only 8.  I've had to talk to Asthon about girls and tell him he isn't allowed to officially date until he is 16, no IFs ANDs or BUTs.  Ashton's asthma has been better lately, thank goodness.  He is constantly on the go and has more energy than I know what to do with.  Back on 9/11 we had a pretty bad asthma scare.  But everything checked out good thankfully.  Then back at the first of November he was sick with a pretty bad bug, I felt so helpless and bad for him.  But he gained all his energy back.  He has become quite obsessed with his clothes and shoes.


A lot going on with her, there will be a separate post for documentation for her current situation.  She is full of spunk and life.  She is struggling with friends at school, but we are working on this.  She is very bossy.  We take it one day at a time, I have to remind her Dad quite often that she is NOT the boss.  We are constantly waiting on what crazy outfit she'll surprise us with next or comment she'll have to make.  She recently learned to ride her bike on her own with the help of Ashton.


Well he is Bob.  He has a lot of medical craziness going on.  Was recently diagnosed with a thyroid problem and a nerve problem in his hand.  But he continues going.  He is currently on break from school and I'm okay with it. 


I'm still plugging away.  Exhausted most days.  I just turned 31 and well I wish I was still 21.  But I'm not and I've had to accept that.  I'm busy crafting, doing laundry, working, doing laundry, filling in our schedule with fun things and oh DOING LAUNDRY.  Yup, this is my life.