January Blues

Ugh, I've been in this weird funk lately. Everything and EVERYONE bothers me. I even bother myself....is there such thing? I get easily frustrated with myself, my kids and my husband.

I've had 5 meltdowns in the last 2 days. Yeah, sad I know.


I have good reasons for my meltdowns.


1. I've been sick for over a week with a stupid sinus infection. I even told Bob at one point that I wanted to cut my nose off. I found out that I take for granted how glorious it is to be able to breathe out of both nostrils. Never again.  And I'm still trying to kick the stupid cold.


2. An unexpected call from a radiologist about Lexi. She is extremely back up and after 2 days of trying to clean her out and NOTHING happening, looks like we'll be going to our favorite place....Primary Children's. The girl can't win. Its one thing after another. We aren't sure whats going on. It could be a number of things, right now, I can't think about them.


3. I need some hot warm weather, I need the sun. The more I stay in Utah, the more I realize how much I HATE the cold. But how do you pick up and leave a state that you have known for the last 20 years and leave everything...it just can't happen.


4. My baby sister is moving to Texas, she has met an amazing guy and leaves on March 9th. I'm happy for her and even though we don't see each other all the time, its going to feel weird.


5. I realize in the last several months that I need to work on the relationship with my other Sister, things haven't been the same for a while now due to events that happened last August.  It breaks my heart and makes me sad.


6. I feel bad complaining about my kids especially knowing that I have friends that have been trying for awhile to have kids. BUT....THEY ARE DRIVING ME INSANE, the other reason I need warmer weather. I have got to have them out of the house for more than 30 mins where they aren't coming in frozen solid.

7.  I've been getting on my Husbands nerves and he in return on mine.  He is working full time and doing school full time.  I have to keep the kids quiet for hours on week nights and well thats not always possible.  But on Mondays and Thursday while he has his classes, I have to really shut them up.  So its an hour of threats to keep them calm.  The other day I lost it myself (again I wasn't feeling good), my daughter likes to harass our dog and after telling her to quit picking up the dog by her neck for the 100th time, I couldn't do it anymore.  I yelled (and feel extremely bad) at Bob about how convienent it was for him to have school when it was 20 degrees outside and we could do NOTHING like it was his fault that school started when it did.  Then last night, I just wanted to go to bed by 9pm, thats it.  Well he was up doing homework and I flipped again.  I told him this morning "I just need to run away for a bit with no access or contact with anyone or anything and I'll be good."  Did I mean it?  Yes, part of it, I will need access to the internet....LOL  Not that I am leaving, I couldn't do it, but doesn't mean I haven't dreamed about it.

These are the reasons for my January blues, good thing there is only 1 day left and I only have 58 days until my vacation to somewhere warmer....TEXAS.

I'm sure I'll be fine, I'm really not CRAZY even though I feel like it.  I just need a non-sick week and a good nights sleep....thats it!

The greatest show on earth

We decided last week that we were going to surprise the kids and go to the circus. It was a rough week though, so I wasn't sure we would make it. Lex was almost admitted to the hospital (more on that later), I got sick and everything was falling apart. But I decided we needed to go, it was a must. I would bring my box of tissues (sinus infection...YUCK!!), not breathe on anyone and lots of sanitizer.

Its kind of neat how it works out, instead of paying $17.00 for nose bleed seats, it was $17.00 for wherever you wanted and no seats were bad seats. At first we right on the front row, but decided we wanted to move up. So we were on row 5 right in the middle. Oh and the best part.....the kids were FREE.

I don't think I have ever seen Ashton smile so BIG. He was so happy to get on that BIG GIANT ELEPHANT. Jax, he wanted NOTHING to do with it. SN: Please excuse the lighting, they had these giant lights and they were screwing with my pictures.

We got there an hour before the show started. I love to people watch. I've never seen so many strange people in one place. We of course had the most annoying family behind us too, the lady couldn't quit yelling everytime something happened and her Son kicked my seat the ENTIRE time. I held my patience though, because I was at a KID PLACE.

We got snacks before. Jax and I had a churro, Lex and Ash had popcorn. I can't believe how expensive some things are, but we stuck with buying stuff from the concessions and not the Circus itself.

AND THEN THE SHOW BEGAN...

First up...the tigers, oh they were beautiful. There were 2 white ones and 4 regular ones.

I loved the tigers, they were so neat.

Next up was the tight line, it was very intense to watch and I didn't get good pictures.

After that some juggling, where I didn't get good pictures either.

Then it was the circle thing that a guy goes around in, also....not good pictures.

And next up, one of my favorites of the show...

THE DOGS, they were all so cute and so fun to watch.

It was tons of fun watching them. They had a little chihuaha and it reminded me of Daisy.

And then intermission and it was an hour long and the kids got bored easily. It was the only thing that I didn't like about the whole show.

After intermission was the flying trapzee people and they were so good, but I have no pictures, I didn't even attempt to take any. It was too dark.

Then the Aerial acrobats, they were pretty good.

My next favorite was this guy, he was amazing, he stacked 10 chairs on top of each other and it was unbelievable. A couple of times I couldn't watch.

He definately has some talent.

BUT my favorite part of the whole show...

THE ELEPHANTS.

Loved, loved, loved them. They were so fun to watch and I loved them.

And to end the show, Jaxon's favorite part...

3 motorcycles in a ball...talk about SCARY. First they started with 1, then 2 and ended with 3. Jaxon thought it was the coolest thing on earth. I thought it was the scariest thing on earth. Then he proceeded to tell me that thats what he wants to do. Don't worry, I'm not too worried, because I know Jax all too well. He is ALL talk...no DO and if he ever even thinks about it, I'll think of a grand story to talk him out of it.

Ashton's favorite part was the Tigers and the dogs, he loved those both and of course his ride on the elephant that he advised he "can't wait to tell my teacher about."

Lex favorite part....eating "corn, corn" Hey, I'm just glad she ate it, even if it was only a little bit.

I'm so glad we went, it was totally worth it.

A Sunday drive

Some of the best memories when I was a child, was when we would just get in the car and DRIVE. We didn't know where we were going, what we were doing or how long it would take. We just went.

Today we decided to go for a drive up Trappers Loop.

It was beautiful, the scenery was amazing and all the fresh snow was just glowing.

We pulled off to the side of the road where we played for like 30 minutes.

The kids had a blast climbing to the top of the snow piles.

Even Daisy loved the snow.

We had lots of fun.