Half Way There...

In the picture above she is smiling at us. So cute!!!

In this picture she is turning her head.

Its OFFICIAL!!! We are still having a baby girl and I am half way there....YAY!!! I couldn't be more happier, I had my target ultrasound today and everything looks GREAT!!! I am already so in love with her and excited to meet her. Now I can FINALLY start buying things and I have feeling I am going to have to be taken out of stores....

Why do we worry?

I don't know what it is, but I don't do anything but worry my entire pregnancy...Its really driving me crazy this time, because I hadn't felt her move since Saturday and so of course I was pretty freaked out. I know that she won't always move at the same times as before, but I did everything they tell you to do to try and get her to move....FINALLY, today around 12:30, she finally decided to let me know she was still there. Being that this is my last pregnancy, I wanted to enjoy being pregnant and everything that comes along with it, but I can't seem to stop worrying about everything, even the small things. My next ultrasound is the "BIG" ultrasound where they check to make sure everything is okay with the heart and all the other major parts. I think its normal to worry, my first PA I use to go to told me once that we never stop worrying, even when your kids are grown adults you still worry. Its true and she is totally right, she said that if you didn't worry then something was wrong. I especially worry about bringing a child into this world right now, with the way things are with the economy and everything, its scary. I just cannot wait for June to get here, I have 4 months from Thursday until my maternity leave starts and I don't go back to work until September 14th...I am so excited. YAY!!

New Family Member, messy kid and puppy love...

Meet Tabitha, after much thought, I have decided to keep one of the puppies, this one is the runt, I had to help her get healthy and have just fallen in love completely with her. Not that I don't love the other puppies, but I have a special bond with her. The kids are happy, they begged to keep one and I just couldn't decide with a baby on the way...well as you can see, I gave in...

Ashton loves to wear his food, this kid has been eating so much lately, he has grown a lot too, a lot of his clothes aren't fitting him and he is growing up right before my eyes. This makes me sad, because Ashton has been my baby for the last 2 years, he loves his Mommy and always wants me....NOW, he wants nothing to do with me, well unless I have food or something he wants. He is still my baby and always will be my baby boy!

The boys both love these puppies, I am not sure how its going to go when they are gone. Jaxon helps me feed them everyday including bringing them out of their box and everything. They keep him entertained. The whole attitude thing has gotten kind of better, we took the TV away permanently and he still doesn't have it. I like it, he goes to bed at bedtime, doesn't stay up until 2:30 in the morning and he actually plays with his brother. I have also learned a lot about Jaxon in the last week, he has to be the center of attention, he wants everyone to know that he is there and if they don't notice, thats when he starts acting up. I love Jax so much, he really does keep me going and there is never a dull moment with him. I have also learned that he likes to help, he has helped with a lot lately and I have enjoyed it. I think that the TV was hiding this kid the whole time, it was an excuse for me and I enjoy his presence more than anything.

On a side note, I also registered Jax for Kindergarten this week, I can't believe, I swear just yesterday I was having him in the hospital and now he is all grown up. I am nervous for him to start school, I talked with the school though and they said they have some of the most patient and loving kindergarten teachers, I am glad, it makes me feel better. Jaxon needs someone that has patience and someone that will keep him busy.

Does it get better?

So I am pretty much at the end of the rope today. Jaxon started the morning off bad, the first thing he did is slap his brother across the face. So I ignored that and moved on thinking maybe its the attention thing that really is making him do all this. I only ask 3 things of Jaxon everyday, I know he is 4 years old so asking more would be pushing it. His 3 chores (I don't even know if I would call them that) are to: 1. Feed the dog, it takes 2 minutes if that and its easy and he enjoys it. 2. keep his room clean, I don't mean it has to be shining, but I just ask that he doesn't pile up trash and that he keeps his toys that he isn't playing put up. 3. Its quite easy, I just ask that he keep his hands to himself and if he feels like they are going get out of control he find something to do with them. In my mind their pretty easy task, not asking too much and it doesn't take up a whole day, because I myself know how precious playing time is for a 4 year, let alone any kid.

Well he started off on the wrong foot this morning, first with slapping his brother, then proceeding to shred paper all over his room. If he wants to shred the paper he has to realize he is going to have to clean it up, well he didn't think that was right. So it starts with the Jaxon tatrum that last for hours, going from crying to screaming to crying to screaming and never ending. I can only take so much of this before I lose my patience. He then proceeds to beat the crap out of his brother once again, so at this point I have to step in and I do. I have learned that taking toys from Jaxon doesn't mean anything, he just doesn't care. But taking away his TV is the worse thing you can do to him. I had a hard time letting him have the TV in the first place, I didn't have a TV in my room until I was in Junior High and I never had a DVD player, so I think he has it made. I have taken away the TV one other time, but never stuck to keeping it away, he had it back in no time. I have learned and been told several times, if I am going to do something I need to stick to it, especially with a child. I know I have struggled in this area and I think its part of the reason why he acts the way he does. So I took away the TV, its gone, he isn't getting it back, I advised him that he is going to have to earn it back, which will require some very good days of listening and not back talking. I figure its the only way to help with the way he is acting and maybe I am wrong, I really don't know. Right now I am at my struggling point, I have never had a 4 year old, I haven't done this before, so its new. All I know is that Jaxon is not the same he use to be, I know I am part to blame, because I let him get away with so much for so long. Does this get better? I really am up to take any advice possible, what do you do? How do you stop the nasty attitude? How do you get that loveable child back that seems to be missing? Its hard for me to say these things because I love my Son with all my heart, but I miss the old Jaxon, I want him back. Why is it so hard being a parent sometimes?

HELP!!!

Crazy Busy...

Does anyone else feel like there is not enough hours in the day?

I have had so much going on that I feel like all I do is run, run, run and when I am not on the go, I just want to sit and do nothing.

First, I hadn't worked a full 5 day work week in quite some time with all the Holidays and everything, so working 5 days this week really kicked my butt.

Next, I have 6 adorable little puppies keeping me really busy, I never knew how much time would come a long with this....well now I know. It really has been a fun experience, watching them grow, listening to their cute little barks and just taking care of them. These little cuties will be ready Valentine's week, if your interested, let me know, their so good with kids and the middle picture below is my Dog, she is the Mommy!

Now these boys, they REALLY keep me busy, I keep asking how I am going to handle all this with three. I think it will work out, it has to have its way. Jaxon has definately been touching my patience lately, he has quite the mouth and thinks he knows it all. Sometimes I have to walk away and count to 10 so I don't blow up. I also have been fighting with him about peeing all over my toilet, its getting really old. Does anyone else have this problem? He refuses to sit down and go potty, which I guess I am okay with that, but boy am I tired of cleaning pee of the toilet 90 times a day.

Ashton, he has turned into a little rugrat, he is following in Jaxon's footsteps, he doesn't stop from sun up to sun down. He is talking so good, saying things that amaze me everyday. He is almost completely potty trained and I couldn't be happier, it was so much easier than Jaxon, he was trained til he was over 3. Ashton is only 2 and pretty much only wears a diaper at night. He goes both 1 and 2 in the toilet, its been really nice. We also had our first outing today with no diaper on and he had no accident. I am so proud of him and he knows it!!

We have also been preparing for our little Lexi, its going to be quite the adventure, but an exciting one. I am 18 weeks today and I feel really good, I finally have some energy back and I can eat without it coming back up 10 mins later. I go to the doctor for my BIG ultrasound on the 29th. I swear time is flying, it feels like just yesterday I was finding out that I was pregnant and now I am almost half way done. The boys are getting excited also, Ashton has to give the baby a kiss everyday and Jaxon reminds me that he is going have a sister about 5 times a day.

Hope that everyone is having a good year so far and this was just a quick update on what we have been up too...not much!!!

Bring on 2009...

I am so excited for 2009 in more ways then I can even explain....

2008 was a hard and challenging year, but it really has made me a stronger person. This year is going to be filled with so many adventures and new things. First starting with the boys getting a year older, Jax turning 5 and Ash turning 3, wow I can hardly believe it. They both have grown up so fast and amaze me everyday. Next we will welcome our first baby girl, I am so excited for this new adventure, but I keep wondering how its going to work out, will she be a girlie girl? Or will she be a tom boy because she has two big brothers? I can't wait to share girl things with my daughter, not that I don't enjoy sharing moments with my two boys that I love so much. I will be able to go to those girly shows now and not have to look for an excuse. Also in August Jaxon will start Kindergarten, I am so scared for this to happen. Not that I think Jaxon is not smart enough to start, but he is very stubborn and has a hard time listening. But I also think that it might be the best thing for him, he will get to make new friends and learn lots of things.

When I woke up this morning I had the greatest feeling, I felt relieved, I had energy and I was so excited. I know there is some challenging things I have to get through that involves my job, but I believe that everything will work out in the end. What scares me the most is having to look for a new job in this economy.

We didn't do much for New Years Eve being that I can't make it to midnight, although I tried my hardest and only made it to a little after 11pm. I wish everyone a HAPPY NEW YEAR and hope that it brings great things.