WHY????

Today has not been a very fun day and I wish the news was better, but its not. It all started when I found out that one of my friends lost her daughter earlier this month. I was torn into two directions, one being very very very sad and upset and the other one being thankful. I am thankful because you never realize how blessed you are to have healthy kids until see someone so young and precious pass away. Its kind of like your Mom always telling you that you will know how she felt when you have kids, thats this feeling. I hate it, I hate that a little child has to suffer and a parent has to experience it, if I ever get super powers (I know I am being stupid), but I would take all the pain, suffering and hate away.
Then I call one of my co-workers who I look up to quite a bit, she always reassures that everything is okay. Well she is telling me about how she went to school to pick up her son and noticed this little boy sitting by himself and everyone else is gathered around signing yearbooks and he is just sitting there. It broke her heart as it did mine when she was telling me this, she said she had tears in her eyes, because she could only imagine how he felt. This goes back to my friends daughter who had to be taken out of school because people were making fun of her. WHY? Why do we make fun of people, we are all the same, we all have feelings. If there is anything I wish to teach my kids its that it does not matter what you look like, what color you are, what religion you are or what disability you have, we are all the same and all have feelings, some people may show it different or never express it, but deep down inside it really hurts. I know I am guilty of making fun of people once in my life and I can promise everyone and myself that I will never do it again.

Okay, now that I have gotten that out I feel better. Thanks for listening to me and remember to cherish everyday with your kids/Family, you never know when it will be the last.

Jaxon through the YEARS...

Jaxon now almost 4 years old

Jaxon Bailee Clemments

Jaxon is turning 4 tomorrow so I thought it would be fun to blog about how he came into this world and a little more. This is more for me to look back on, but I hope you enjoy it.

Me the day before Jax was born

Jaxon was born on May 30th, 2004, I was scared to death of the whole labor thing, so this is how the whole thing went down.
I was two weeks over due and so they scheduled me to be induced on May 29th, 2004 at 9pm, so you might be asking why so late (I wondered the same thing and still do to this day). So everything was going good at first except for the fact that I was so nervous and anxious for it all to be over so I didn't sleep at all. At Midnight my contractions started getting pretty bad, I was very uncomfortable, the nurses kept getting mad because I couldn't sit still, OOPS!!! So finally at 2am I decided I needed the epideral so atleast I could get some sleep, so they check me and I was still only dialated to a three, OKAY!!! So I went in at a three, not much progress. After I got my epidural I finally started to get comfortable and I they gave me some medicine to relax me, well when they gave me this medicine it not only relaxed me, but made Jaxon's heart rate drop to the 60's, which is VERY LOW!!! I was immediately freaked, because I had all these buttons going off, I had twenty nurses around me and I was talking to my doctor on the phone who was telling me that they were taking Jaxon C-Section. I can't even describe the feeling that I got, but it was so crazy, I was shaking and crying and my Mom was upset and I just wanted someone to tell me everything was going to be alright.

Jax a couple of days old

So they take me to this very very very very cold Operating Room and there are all these tools and nurses and its just creepy. I was so nervous I remember telling my doctor that I had carried him for nine months and he was coming out alive, he reassured me that everything was going to be fine and that I would have my baby in no time. The longest part of the whole c-section was waiting to see Jaxon after he had already been out, I swear it took them like 5 hours to staple me up and really it took like 10 minutes. Jaxon was a huge baby, I knew the moment I seen him that he weighed a lot, he weighed 9lbs 9oz and was 21 1/2 inches long, he had dark thick hair and I fell in love with him the very moment I saw him. Jaxon was the best baby anyone could ask for, he slept through the night at 2 weeks, he really only cried if he was wet or hungary. Jaxon caught on to things very quickly, I knew he was going to be very independent as he grew up. He started eating cereal at 2 months, because a bottle just wasn't enough. The doctors say by the way he is growing he will be over 6' 3", I totally see more and more as he grows up. He amazes me everyday, he talks so good, he says things that I would never imagine a three year old to say, he sometimes is too smart for his own pants though. When Jaxon was a baby I thought I was going to have to buy him dentures, because he didn't get his first tooth until he was 10 months old. Jaxon started crawling at exactly 6 months, he walked before he turned one and loved to dance to any kind of music. I believe Jaxon is a Grandma's boy, he loves his Grandma soooooooooooo much and I am fine with that, because I wish I would've been closer to my Grandma growing up, we are pretty close now, but when I was younger I never really knew her.

Jax one years old

Some of Jax's favorite things to do:

Play with trucks/boats/cars

Go camping with Grandma and Grandpa Peavy

Watch movies (Little Einsteins, Cars, Land Before Time, Monsters, etc.)

Eat apples and mostly any kind of fruit (He prefers fruit over candy anyday)

Go shopping with Mommy

Go to lowes to see the tractors

Play in the dirt

Go swimming (but not take a bath)

Go to the park

The color green, he loves green, if you ever ask him what color he wants of something 9 times out of 10 he will say GREEN.

I believe Jaxon has filled a place in my heart and life that needed to be filled, its so great to love some one as much I love my boys.

Jax one years old

Jax 18 months

Jax 22 months

Jax two years old

Jax 30 months old (he always the life of the party

Catch up

WOW, its been a few weeks since I last blogged, but boy has a lot happened.

First, we have had two Tball games, I never knew how much work it would be to coach 12 little kids, but boy is it sooooo MUCH fun!!! Every single kid has a different personality, they all are learning and its so much fun to be a part of that, I know that I will be remembered for a long time.







Second, both of my boys are turning a year older, Jax will be 4 Friday, I can hardly believe it. I swear he was just a little baby and now he is all grown up :( My baby, Ash is turning 2 and this is the biggest shocker to me, these past 2 years have flown by so fast, we had a lot of struggles along the way with Ash, but HEY, we made it. My boys amaze me everyday, they are both intelligent, loving and the cutest boys I know. HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAX AND ASH!!!!








And last but certainly not least, Jax finished his last day of his first year of Preschool, I am happy and sad. Sad because thats just one year closer to him going to Elementary and happy because he has learned so much and I can't wait to see what next year brings. Thank you Cynthia for teaching Jaxon so much and being so caring, he couldn't of had a better teacher.




James, Jaxon and Cynthia

Jaxon and James making cupcakes

Jaxon and Wyatt (Teachers Son) doing art work

Jaxon near circle time

Growing up, Tball and much more fun

Both of my boys have birthdays coming up and I can hardly believe that it has already been 4 years since Jaxon was born and two since Ashton was born. They amaze me everyday with how much they have grown up. Jaxon is way too smart for his own pants most of the time, he talks a lot and comes up with the funniest things ever. Sometimes I think he knows more than I do, he is such an intelligent kid. He will start his second year of preschool next year, he has done very good this year, but I am excited for him to officially be in the preschool class and not just one where he does arts and crafts and watches bugs grow all year. Jaxon is starting Tball this and I am coaching it, I am excited, not only because Jaxon is playing his first sport, but because I am going to get some much needed exercise.

About Ashton, he is going to be 2 and amazes me everyday also, he has had a slow start with somethings, but heck the kid has been through "hell" and back. Ashton is finally starting to talk and say real words. His newest word this week is flower, but he pronounces it "ower", he says I love you all the time, those three words are enought to melt your heart coming out of his mouth. Ashton is going to be the team mascot for Tball, he has his own jersey and will be at every game watching his brother or maybe running from Daddy.

Its so amazing how fast life is, I swear my boys were just born yesterday and today their running around, causing trouble and almost starting school. I love every minute of it though and wouldn't trade it for the world. We have a lot to look forward this summer and I am excited, we have been doing a lot of yard work lately at our new house and its so much fun.