Monday, December 15, 2014

Losing a friend

I sat down to write this post right after in happen, but the words just didn't seem right.

November 18th will be a day that forever changed my life.  I will never forget finding out, the discussion with my boy and the days following.  Jaxon lost a friend whom he played with at school.  It was the hardest thing I've had to go through since my parenting days started 10 years ago.  The sadness, the unanswered questions, the why and oh so much more.  But what I will never forget is seeing the amount of faith my 10 year old Son has.  He isn't one to talk about his relationship with God, but oh how it came out.  Seeing your 10 year old pray when he is hurting, knowing that God has this, he has all the answers and sometimes its okay that we don't know them.  I will never forget him telling me "Mom, I know my friend is safe from this crazy world, I know he is Mom!  He is with Jesus!"  Indeed he is Son.  He so is.  I've never cried so hard minus finding out I may lose my Husband.  I cried tears for my boy this time though, my heart hurt so bad for him. 

This photo was etched in my brain for days.  My boy praying for his friend, for his family and for his friends friend's.  But deep down inside he was hurting.  He asked God to keep his friend safe and that he'll see him again somedays.
Made my heart happy to know that 3 years ago, I wouldn't have taught my Kids what they know today about God and Jesus.  OH how I've seen so many blessings in all our lives just by committing to follow the way that God wants us to follow.  So many blessings pouring down.

And the night before I ran across this on pinterest and it spoke right to my heart.
No child should ever lose a friend at the age of 10....ever.  But we know God has a plan and he needed him more than we did.

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