Things have been crazy over the last few months, we've been caught in a whirlwind of what to do with our lives, which direction God is leading us and how to handle it all.
The truth is, Bob and I have never been happy here in Texas. We miss HOME sooooo bad, its kind of ridiculous. I hate that my 9 and 7 year old are raising themselves pretty much, getting themselves off to school and coming home for 1-2 hrs in the evening before we get home 3 days a week. I hate the chaos with daycare for Lex, I hate my 45 min to 2 hr commute one way every day, I hate being in a City so big that if you want to do something you have to see how the traffic is going to be. I just hate it.
So I put 110% of my faith in God and prayed and prayed and prayed. I asked God to lead me to where he thought I needed to go, to give me the guidance, the strength and to show me the way. If he thought I should stay in Texas and continue the craziness, then I would. I would deal with the commute, the chaos and stress of this new crazy life.
As time went on, things started to lean more towards Utah. I believe so much that the Lord knew that I needed this year to find myself and HIM, I have no doubt about it. But I think he knows my heart isn't happy and that its time for me to go back to the place I love and my family is happy at.
So the questions....
Does Bob have a job? Yes, he is able to keep his job he was promoted to in June and work in Utah. Which is a huge blessing.
Do I have a job? No, NOT YET, but I will. I'm working on a few things and I'm once again letting God lead the way and I know that something will come, I have complete faith.
Our house in Roy? We are NOT going back to our house, we have sold it and we are just waiting for all that to go through. So we'll live with my parents for a little bit, find a place of our own sometime next year and start fresh.
Are the kids excited? Yes and No, they've tried their best to make this place home and they've gotten use to things I guess is the best term to use. So YES, they are excited to go home, but kind of nervous at the same time.
So we are headed home on November 15th, we'll say good-bye to this place we've struggled in for the last 10 months and head to the place we know. We'll say "see ya later" to my grandparents who have been absolutely amazing. Its time to feel normal again and I CANNOT WAIT!!!